It was so sudden that I really had no idea what to do.
At 6.15 in the morning my mom ran into the room, slamming my door, saying my dog, hutchy wasn't breathing.
I immediately ran out and saw it on its bed. Lying on its side, eyes open and tongue sticking out.
All I could was hold its cold body and paws.
Since when was it so cold i thought. I tried to close its eyes but it just wouldnt.
I remember the first day I met it at the pet shop.
During the ride home, my mom told me
'you better take care of it. Dogs live a shorter life then us. It will at most live until you are in poly'.
After I got my O level certificate and into poly, I got worried.
Wanting to avoid the fact that he would go one day.
But who knew that day would have to come sooner or later.
I thought at least it would accompany me till I graduate.
When it was time to bring it to the vet to say goodbye,
it was really hard.
I got reminded of the day i brought him home.
I felt sad and bad and kept saying sorry for not bringing him to the vet earlier yesterday.
Thinking that he would be okay today and planned on bringing him today.
He didnt even eat last night and just like that he passed away.
he loved food. He was one hungry dog and always kept begging for food.
But I want to thank him for making me smile everyday.
Thank him for giving me a reason for not being alone, being my sibling.
I also feel sorry that I wasn't always with him because as I grew older I became busier.
I am sorry he had to be alone during the day because we were all busy with life
I am also sorry I couldnt bring him around anywhere except a walk below the park.
I wonder if it had a good time spending time with my family.
well I hope he did and I hope in the next life it wont be as greedy as it used to be.
And not spin around the table too much cuz it might make him dizzy.
I'm gonna miss his smell, his fur and his furry little paw that he always hated me touching.
I'm gonna miss his eyes and tongue and the way he looked at me when I pat it.
My dear brother, you have suffered enough and I am so sorry I made you suffer.
I hope you are at a place somewhere better,maybe with oba-chan, oji-chan and nana.
May you always be smiling and spinning with that cute little tongue out of your mouth.
I am going to miss you dearly.
