August - How I spent it.

Wow, I haven't really been blogging much have I?
Well the month of August has been a really busy busy busy month for me.
Also it is the month where I say goodbye to my Year 2 Sem 1 classmates.
At first we were distant but now I am actually going to miss all of them.

So conclude this month of august,
I am going to post all the pictures I took for this month.
Here is my photostory haha..

Birthday Beer from the Lamas. Best day ever as I had a rough week when they celebrated my b'day, look at the amazing card!! Haha its currently on my wall by the way. I am really glad I met these bunch of friends as  they just really opened my anti-social door. Showing me that there more to life then just these four walls.

 Birthday treats from my parents. Cake and wallet on my birthday itself. Wasn't a grand celebration because I had to work on my birthday :( BUT they made it up to me by bringing me to eat xiao long bao at Lot 1's paradise dynasty..the mango pudding was to die for!! 

Various Sunset pictures for the month of August. 

It was very hot in the first few weeks but we're hitting the raining season soon

so YAY!!

Went to chomps with my four of my classmates/friends and honestly had a fun night.

So over the national day/hari raya weekend I went to a lot of places with the family and one of them was Garden by bay. If I have the time, Maybe I will post up the pics I took there. It was beautiful. Especially the layout in the forest dome..or was it called the hill dome. I forgot :/

Went to watch a free show at sentosa with wifey~~
A group called "before you exit"..they were so-so for me but hey wifey wanted to watch so I just tagged along cuz honestly I liked going out then staying at home.

After the concert and some walk through sentosa we had an impromtu drinking session but I had to stop at 2 drinks cuz I had work the next day and had to wake up at 4am. Life of an events assistant.

So, for our last lesson for effective presentation, I decided to wear a dress (how surprising...it rained that day by the way) It was soooo uncomfortable. [Picture is not mine by the way] Anyways highlight of the day was that our faci treated us to loads of pizza. Love that faci but sadly we only knew her for three lessons.. :/ Gonna miss all my classmates who I can now safely say are my friends.

Went out for dinner last friday with my classmates and friends again (All the way to bedok too!). 

Also since we are quite early we went to drink at the same bar as last time. But this time I drank some of my friends beer other then my own so lets just say I took the taxi home and crashed into bed. Love this brand of beer by the way. It tastes so nice

I went for Ignite again this year!! It was awesome but I couldn't enjoy much because I was basically still hungover from the night before (such a loser I was..I blame on the lack of sleep I had before drinking that night)

Work as usual...

And I finally watched the phantom of the opera!!! My dream has came true. IT WAS SPECTACULAR. i'm so happy that i finally got to watch it because I have wanted to watch it since I was it in primary school and watched the movie in secondary. The story itself is so sad. And honestly the musical was magical. The tricks the lighting the fire blazing the stage. It may be boring for some but it was awesome for me.

I just sat there like a kid watching a movie for the first time. Everything fascinated me. Hope to see another musical in the future! Maybe Cats. I also have wanted to watch Cats since young. 

So that was my august. I hope I get to post more often as the holidays are coming soon but I can't promise as I will also (still) be working over the holidays. 

Cheers :) 

                        

"I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care any more

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you 

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's all right

'Cause we lost it all

And nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect"

  Why is the only question I can ask myself.
Why did god put me with these two people when all they do is blame me for everything.
If there is even a God I can believe in and I meet him,
I would love to ask him what were the conditions when I was brought to this world.

Am I just being a child that is narrow-minded that only sees the cons of this family?
But no matter how many times I go over and over
all I can see cons.

I get blamed for the way I speak, the things I do.
I'm basically restricted and am scared to rebel against them because that is how I was brought up.

I just wonder when can I breathe some air and not worry.
Not worry that my words would hurt any of them.

I just wish one day they could see that I, inside am breaking down badly too.

Looking back...

Hey guys~~!!

So I am doing this post though I have a deadline looming over me because I feel I have to.
As busy as I was, I only realized on Wednesday that my birthday was this Sunday and not Friday.
It seemed just like yesterday that I turned 18.

Honestly speaking, being 18 was a very awesome experience.
It is the 'legal' year and it was the year when I gained my freedom.
I got to go home late AND I got to stay over at a chalet not once but twice.
Furthermore I got drunk. Best experience ever.
These days I have been going home late as well and my parents said nothing and I am amazed.
I am amazed how they haven't sat me done or scolded me about my late nights out.

Also, last year was the year I met 7 friends who changed my life.
These 7 people made me more outgoing, loved and thankful that I stayed alive.
I think it was my destiny to live on and I am actually glad that  that I got through the battle within myself when I was younger to meet these people.

Honestly turning 19 makes no difference for me.
This year will be the quietest birthday I will ever have as I am working on that day
and not to mention I have too many things on my mind to even enjoy my day.
Not to mention my parents are celebrating it for me next week because they are busy as well.

I guess I have no things I want to do when I turn 19 because I did almost everything I wanted when I turned 18.
BUT
1. I want to stayover again at a chalet and get drunk.
Getting drunk it not pleasant but really, I could use one drinking session now.
2. I want to learn that relationships are not everything.
I want to get over the fact that I should get into a relationship before I tuen 20 and know that being single is good and maybe being single for life is awesome. I need to learn that I will never be able to be in a relationship so I gotta deal with it. We are born alone, We live alone and We will die alone.
3. Spend more time with my friends.
A wish I have every year. To make time for my primary school buddies and now my secondary school buddies. I promise when the holidays come I will got out with you guys.
4. Just living my days the way I want it to be.
As the sentence says, I just want to live life to the fullest.

So okay,this post may sound crappy because I havent had time to sleep well so I am not thinking right.
BUT
I will have a make-up post regarding how my 19th birthday went because
when this post is posted up, I think the Lamas would have celebrated my birthday for me.
And I am actually worried what they would do to me. hmm..
So yeah!
Till my next post

Cheers.